Memorial Day 2021 Was Different

This year Memorial Day was different.

Sulay and I were at a house on Harbor Island in Beaufort with Sulay's sister and three of her friends. All the girls were speaking Spanish, cooking Colombian food, and having fun being at the beach.

But I felt alone. Their attempts to include me did no good. They decided to go into Beaufort to shop but I stayed behind. As the time passed, I got more and more anxious. I could not focus on anything very long. Then it dawned on me that I needed to meditate. So I went to my site,

www.clearyourmindforlife.org and listened to the video "Are You Afraid?". Twice. The second time was when my awareness gained momentum, the fear and anxiety lifted, and I was no longer anxious or afraid.

The next morning Sulay and I went to walk on the beach at sunrise like we do most mornings while there. We love to watch the sun give life to another day.

But the walks were so enlightening this time. One day we found turtle tracks leading from the ocean to where she deposited her eggs this year. This was something I had never seen before.

Another day the tide was out and we found a deep waterway alongside a section of beach we normally did not walk to. This was something I had never seen before.

And another day we were crossing a small bridge on our way to the beach as we had done many times in the past. Only this time we saw an alligator sunning on the edge of the water. This is something I had never seen before.

I am saying all this to say that since I began meditating, my awareness has become more acute. I see things for the first time.I feel things I never felt. I am becoming alive again.

The memories that always return around Memorial Day came to the forefront of my thinking once again. But this time they were different. I still felt the sadness of the friends I lost and the many others who gave it all so I could have the freedom to write this. But the feelings came with an awareness I had not felt before.

An awareness that I had returned with this horrible condition so I could share with the world some of what we went thru. What we feel every day.

And to learn to meditate so my awareness could awaken. So I could see things differently. So I could tell you my story with the hope that you will at least try meditation.

Meditation is real. Yes, it takes time to reach the point of awareness where you can face your feelings and deal with them instead of hiding from them. Instead of letting them control you. That's what happens when you do not confront your feelings. They control you.

But in the meantime, listen to my short meditation videos for a relaxing escape from the ever present emotions of fear, and anger, and the feelings of worthlessness. Or go to Youtube and find someone you like to listen to. Do it for yourself. Do it for your family. Do it for your cat. But do it.

I love you and I want to help you any way I can. Meditation develops your awareness. Awareness develops your senses. Your senses develop your thoughts. Your thoughts develop your life.

This year Memorial Day was different.